Kundalini Awakening - Spiritual Yearning - Heartfelt Desire - Manifesting Aspirations - Love Versus Asceticism - Heat - Vow Of Service - OR

Kundalini Awakening - Spiritual Yearning - Heartfelt Desire - Manifesting Aspirations - Love Versus Asceticism - Heat - Vow Of Service

Kundalini's Awakening

Summary

In 1985 when I was 20 years old I was inspired by Gopi Krishna's, Kundalini: The Evolutionary Energy In Man (*). Krishna validated my intuition that attaining a spiritual, unitive consciousness was not only possible, but humanity's birthright and evolutionary purpose.

Reading of Krishna's many serious kundalini complications, my intuition told me that Krishna was weak. Physically and emotionally, Krishna was overwhelmed. As a headstrong, vital 20-year-old, in my view Krishna was not a fit or capable vehicle for harboring (or conducting) this state (or force). I believed that someone stronger and better prepared would have far fewer challenges. My reasoning was that if such a state were meant, ultimately, for every person on the planet, then it should not present such a conflict with the typical human being's physical functioning and regular daily duties.

I had read also of Ramana Maharshi's months of incapacitation in a cave, with caregivers bathing him and feeding him. My intuition assured me that if one pursued the spiritual path with sufficient faith, confidence, and determination that no adjustments to one's daily activities would have to be made. Spirit's intention, in my view, was to manifest fully as we are and in this very moment. Whatever fireworks or drama that might be had ought to be able to be fully grounded in the routines and expectations of a typical, normal life.

Following my reading of Krishna's account, as well as some yogic texts (such as Mircea Eliade's, Yoga: Immortality and Freedom) (*), I practiced a number of forms of meditation. I focused on light, darkness, my breath, and various other things to still my mind to the point that an awakening on the order of Krishna's might take place. I quickly became frustrated and annoyed with these attempts, and after some weeks abandoned them. I looked about for an alternate path or strategy.

Throughout this process of trial and error, I followed my intuition with respect to how to proceed. In my heart, though I longed for unitive consciousness, I knew that I was not the slightest bit interested in experiencing the internal light and loss of bodily consciousness that Gopi Krishna experienced.

I found Krishna's sedentary, mental practices to be dissociative. I experienced them as serving to alienate the mind from the heart and body. So I didn't persist with these for more than a few weeks.

I was enrolled in a couple of college courses on mysticism and Indian religious practices. I was exposed to a few snippets from the Indian saint, Ramakrishna, who described Self realization as being like "God making love to every pore in your body." Something clicked in me when I read that. Such a state and feeling was what I pursued. My intuition told me that such a condition could not be achieved by what I experienced to be the severe, masculine, dysfunctional mental gymnastics of the yogi, but rather a receptive, emotional, heart-felt, whole-body yearning for union with God.

After a six-week period of abstract meditation I began to focus in earnest upon attaining a tangible, bodily, emotional consciousness of God.

The kundalini force awakened in me one night in October 1985 at the age of 20. After two days of inflating myself with feelings of gratitude, love, and desire, an explosion of energy erupted from the base of my spine after I had fallen asleep. This heightened energy pounded my head and flooded my extremities with heat, and reignited each time I fell asleep.

This intense, maddening energy presence became a permanent part of my daily life. As a matter of basic survival I had to take long walks and become adept at stilling my mind in order to contain or slow kundalini's efforts directed at what was obviously a process of physiological transformation.

To tread successfully on the spiritual path it is necessary to love oneself and to practice non-attachment. It is also important for aspirants to have had safe and fulfilling childhoods, as well as strong maternal bonds.

Our only chance at survival -- and the only chance we have to increase the number of people capable of awakening this force of spiritual transformation -- is through a collective, planetary effort to elevate human aspirations and the environmental conditions that give rise to them.

At the time of this writing, in 2017, it has taken me nearly ten years to repost this page. It had been up on the web for five years, but I was never happy with it. I've been conflicted because in many respects this awakening was an act of ego. I willed it. I didn't want people to be put off by this. I didn't want arrogance to be perceived as an essential trait for spiritual aspirants. Yes, Grace, God, Kundalini -- whatever you wish to call this energy -- answered my prayers, but it was in response to my demand for divine intervention. I believed that I deserved God's grace. I was otherwise happy, healthy, intelligent, handsome, socially capable, and gifted in my ways, but that was not enough to satisfy me. I wanted more. So one way to read my entreaty is that of a spoiled boy who had everything one might want and wasn't satisfied.

Also, there was an element of disingenuousness about it. I knew in my heart that all my crying and begging was a ruse. It was a purposeful manipulation of my emotional and energetic being so as to invite some kind of triggering event. My intuition told me that I had to work my being into a frothing desire to activate or bring into being a larger perceptual mode. I wasn't in literal agreement with any of the spiritual authors I had read. But I knew that they all were pointing to something "more," and I wanted to come into contact with and embody that. Each of these yogis, mystics, saints, what-have-you's contained pieces of a truth that resonated with me; but I would have to forge my own path that would be unique and appropriate to me and my own circumstance.

Recently, I purchased an electronic edition of Original Gospel of Ramakrishna (*). One-fifth the way through it, several quotes have resonated with me that speak to the importance of heartfelt desire:

“Yes, the holy name has saving powers, but there must be earnest longing with it. Without earnest longing of the heart no one can see God by mere repetition of His name. One may repeat His name, but if one’s mind be attached to lust and wealth, that will not help much." [italics mine]

“When there is true devotion and love, one can reach God by any of the sectarian religions. The Vaishnavas, the worshippers of Krishna, will attain God in the same way as the Shāktas, the worshippers of the Divine Mother (Shakti), or the followers of Vedānta. Those who belong to the Brāhmo Samāj, the Mohammedans, and the Christians, will also realize God through their respective religions. If you follow any of these paths with intense devotion, you will reach Him. If there be any mistake in the path chosen, He will correct the mistake in the long run... The one thing necessary for realization is whole-hearted and whole-souled devotion to God.” [italics mine]

“As in the ocean intense cold will freeze a portion of the water into ice which may float in various forms on the water, similarly intense devotion (bhakti) may condense a portion of Divinity and make it appear in different forms." [italics mine]

“If by the grace of the Lord strong dispassion for worldly things arises in his mind, then such a person becomes free from all earthly attachment. What is this strong dispassion? Let me tell you. Ordinary dispassion makes the mind think of the Lord occasionally, but there is no longing in the heart. Strong dispassion, on the contrary, makes the mind dwell constantly on the Lord with the same intense longing as a mother feels for her only child. He who has strong dispassion does not want anything but the Lord. He looks at the world as a deep well and is always fearful lest he may fall into it. Earthly relations seem to him very distant. He does not seek their company. His whole heart and soul yearn for God. He does not think of his family, nor does he think of the morrow. He also possesses great spiritual force.” [italics mine]

"...so when the breeze of intense love begins to blow in the soul, all devotional exercises like repetition of the name of the Lord, sacrifice, prayers, and asceticism become unnecessary. Devotion without intense love is the sign of unripe bhakti. When it ripens, it leads into divine love, which is perfect and which brings the highest realization.”

~Swami Abhedananda; Fitzgerald, Joseph A.. Original Gospel of Ramakrishna: Based in M's English Text, Abridged (Library of Perennial Philosophy: Spiritual Masters: East and West) . World Wisdom. Kindle Edition.

Kundalini Awakening - Spiritual Signs And Symptoms - March 14, 2002

In October of 1985 I was twenty years old and in my third year of college. The kundalini force awakened in me one night that month. But it wasn't what I expected; in fact, I had little idea what to expect.

I had given up on meditation, which I had quickly formed an intense dislike of. Sitting blankly, or repeating some phrase, or picturing a light, or whatever: I found all these practices so intensely sedentary, cold, and cerebral. I wanted something visceral and emotional. My intuition told me that something like that -- an awareness that I could feel -- was there, somewhere, to be had. But I didn't know where to look, or how to go about it.

During the six weeks leading up to my awakening I did my best to meditate. I tried to focus, alternately, on a number of things: a flower radiant with light, blackness, nothingness, a point of light, a mantra, or the city lights spread out below my house. My body -- indeed, my being -- was repulsed by all these abstract fixations. They felt unnatural and strained to me, as if they arose in contradiction to a wiser physiological and spiritual impulse within me.

I enjoyed the breathing exercises, however. I would inhale air deeply, hold it for ten or fifteen seconds, then release it slowly. I did this throughout the day until I had a sense of perpetual buzz and giddiness. I wasn't the type to take drugs, so it was with pleasure that I pursued altered states of consciousness via increased oxygenation of my brain and blood stream.

Though I could exercise for three hours straight, or read continuously for ten hours or more, I could not focus my mind in a meditative manner for more than sixty to ninety seconds at a time. Actually, it was probably considerably less than that. Within a few seconds these abstract fixations would elicit strange, repulsive sensations in me. My stomach would feel like it was turned upside down; or my skin would crawl in some abominable way, like you were stroking an animal's fur in the wrong direction. More than that, my body -- my bones, my muscles, my brain, and everything else in me that had blood and life -- would cry out in protest, as if to say that my attention was being used in a manner diametrically opposed to its higher purpose.

I had always felt emotionally vital, happy, and physically robust. Seated, abstract meditation worked to undermine this physical and emotional wholeness that had been established in me over the preceding twenty years. It was clear to me that, on a fundamental level, the act of this sedentary, abstract mental focusing worked against the grain of my being's predisposition toward health, oneness, and liberation. Meditation of the sort advocated by Gopi Krishna and others was both counterintuitive and contrary to some deeper, innate wisdom residing in me.

So what to do?

I was in a quandary. If meditation wasn't the answer, then what was? I had several texts from a course titled "Eastern Mystical Traditions and Practices" that I was taking at the university: books on meditation, yoga, breathing exercises, the poetry of Rumi, Kabir, and others, and so forth. I drew on these books for guidance. I was especially impressed with Gopi Krishna's, Kundalini: The Evolutionary Energy in Man. I felt intuitively that his was an honest voice that detailed a profound contact with the divine. But given that I recoiled from engaging the same meditation that he had practiced, the most important point I took away from his work was that there is a mode of being -- a potential -- within us that enables human beings to be conscious -- on a day-to-day and a moment-to-moment basis -- of a broad and pervasive spiritual presence.

And that is exactly what I wanted: to be in conscious, feeling contact -- at every moment -- with God.

So I gave up on meditation.

I was fully confident that if the state of God consciousness was our evolutionary birthright that there must be another, more satisfactory and more direct manner to achieve it. But I was desperate, as well; though I knew that meditation didn't work, I had no idea what did. I resolved simply to follow my intuition.

I began to inflate myself emotionally. For two days in a row I filled myself with a yearning for consciousness of God to the point that I would burst. It was on the second evening that the dam broke. [link to post re: "kundalini and the manipulation of emotions" which is not online yet]

There have been several times in my life that I have not known where to go, having followed my intuition to the edge of something. At these often tumultuous and scary moments, God -- this all-pervasive spiritual presence -- has always reached out to pull me through to the next stage of development. So it was that God visited me in the most dramatic manner that night.

It was in October of 1985 that I got the guidance -- the help, the boost -- that I needed. It happened on the second evening of this new tack in my quest for spiritual fulfillment.

I was laying in my bed, tears streaming down my face, begging for a tangible love to fill my being. That night I had made myself an emotional wreck, thanking everybody and everything for the tremendous love and support I had experienced in my life. I thanked Creation -- my parents, God, and everything else -- for loving me fully and for bringing me to this place in my life. I felt fulfilled in every manner that my external and social relations could make possible. Though I knew that my upbringing had not been perfect, I felt strongly that it had been "good enough." I believed that everyone in my life, regardless of their own personal difficulties, had done their best with me. If anyone had ever caused harm to me, or had disappointed me, I forgave them. I realized that no one was perfect and that we were all doing the best we can within the limitations that beset us.

Despite my inner turmoil, this drama of emotional need was situated on firm social and psychological ground. I had done very well rowing crew for the university the year before -- but I didn't want to have anything more to do with it. I had been offered pledge status at three fraternities -- but I had rejected them. Several women had offered themselves to me -- but I didn't want a sexual relationship. I had come from a prestigious high school with lots of bright, well-to-do graduates, and I had had many opportunities for personal advancement on account of that -- but I wasn't interested in "using" any of this for economic or social gain.

In other words, I felt blessed by the many opportunities and supports available to me. I felt blessed by the love and support of parents, family members, and friends who believed in me. Most everyone in my little social world had a high estimation of me and believed that I could do anything I wanted to do with my life.

I took all this opportunity and support as a given -- a foundation -- and then proceeded to direct all my attention inward. I wanted to find something more real and more permanent than all these positive, but basically ephemeral, affirmations of who I was.

In short, my spirit wasn't satisfied with these various worldly and "external" accomplishments. Therefore I was asking God for more. I wanted to be suffused with a fundamental, permanent feeling of love and oneness throughout my body and mind. Just as my lungs breathed oxygen for sustenance from the air around me, so I craved a consciousness that drew love and oneness from the seamless energy field that pervades us, a field that includes and transcends every point in the universe.

On this second evening, an hour after I had fallen asleep, I was awakened by an explosion of energy at the base of my spine. Tremendous heat and force pounded my head and streamed through my extremities. I remember, in particular, the heat flowing through my hands.

I was terribly startled by what my supplications had unleashed. It was madness. I clenched my fists, opened my eyes wide, and shouted, "No!" I begged to be delivered from this hot, overwhelming energy. It was intolerable.

In an instant I made a promise to this power: I swore that if it would simply let me live -- and allow me to feel sane -- that all I would ask for would be to live a normal, humble life in the service of God. I had absolutely no interest in pyrotechnics, siddhis, visions, or special powers. I didn't want to be a messiah, or be viewed as such by others. I wanted to support myself with a job like a normal person. I wanted to find a mate and raise a family of my own. If I had any spiritual work to do -- or if there were any spiritual experiences or milestones that I needed to pass through -- I wanted them grounded in that: normalcy, predictability, safety, simplicity, and so forth.

That night, every time I fell back to sleep the energy would re-erupt from my spine, but each time with less drama and power. Still, sleep evaded me and I felt gradually that my ability to cope -- my ability to feel sane -- was foundering. I was forced to take a walk to absorb some of this excess energy. I took to the hills from 2:00 a.m. to 5:00 a.m. that night and was finally able to sleep for a few hours upon returning. I was lightheaded, irritable, and somewhat disoriented for the next several days after.

It became commonplace for me not to sleep well. My consciousness -- which had become intertwined with this hot, ascending current -- became easily inflamed. It was routine for me to lay down for bed at 10:00 p.m. and realize, after an hour, that I couldn't sleep. I found that the longer that I lay there with my mind churning, the worse the heat and my sense of psychic imbalance became. I would then drag myself out of bed to seek solace in a three-hour walk in the hills, returning to bed maybe at 3:00 a.m., when my wish for sleep would be granted.

Overall, I was especially sensitive and irritable during the next few years. Thinking too much or obsessing about anything became anathema to my spiritual equilibrium. Yet I was a successful full-time student during this time; so there was always quite a tug-of-war or balancing act going on.

Over time, under the harsh tutelage of this kundalini process, I became adept at stilling my mind. Better to be able to shut down your internal dialogue in order to sleep, than find your consciousness running amuck and in need of a midnight hike.

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The moral or conclusion I draw from this story is that an emotional openness and a yearning for love are key to opening the door to this process. Abstract contemplation -- at least in my case -- was ineffective. In fact, it was worse than doing nothing: It denied the feelings and sensations arising from my body -- sensations and whole-body intuitions that are more grounded and spiritually cognizant than any product or process engaged by the mind.

My experience solidified my perception that asceticism and denial are not only boring, but obstacles to emotional and spiritual health, as well. Abstinence -- the removal of oneself from the flow of life -- withers the heart. One's life should possess a continuous sense of emotional and tangible relationship. Happiness and emotional and physical validation should light your path every step of the way.

It is the cultivation of non-attachment that is the real trick. But non-attachment is also the hardest thing. You have to have such a profound and deep love for yourself that nothing in this world -- neither personal accomplishment nor social relationship -- can phase you. You have to be so firmly rooted in your self that nothing can dislocate your self-identity into an orbit around some thing or some one external to yourself.

Ultimately, this overflowing self-love is merely evidence of God loving you. God is the most powerful and reliable source of love you will ever find. No one and no thing can love you more than God.

If you begin to feel that something external to you -- your job, your partner's love, a possession, or any other number of things -- is the source and foundation of your security and self-esteem, then you have strayed from the path and are in a dangerous place.

While you should follow your heart in all matters, it is also important to recognize abuse and/or addiction when it arises. If you feel a disorienting pull from something external to you, then it is advisable that you seek to re-group and re-ground yourself. You have to find life-practices that give you deep roots -- energetically, physically, and emotionally -- into the present moment. The deeper the roots that you have, the better able you will be able to withstand the attractive pull of something delicious and/or charismatic.

Not that lasting long in bed has ever been a strength of mine -- unlike the Hindu god Shiva who is reported to have coupled with his consort Shakti in sexual union continuously for over a thousand years without shedding one drop of his precious seed -- I at least feel like Shiva emotionally, and to me that is far more important.

I am fortunate to have received much love and adulation in my life. Receiving such good will from others was helpful, even necessary, in that it signaled that my life and interactions with others were effective and mutually felt. This helped to form a strong foundation of inner trust. Over time, with my mother's support and with the recognition and affirmation of others, I came to know instantly that my perceptions were accurate and that, if I were to take the time to explain my reaction to something, that other people could not help but agree with me.

If you are strong, and if you have been lucky enough to have developed a solid spiritual and emotional foundation, affirmations and love splash upon you like waves upon a mighty rock. Inside you should be unmoved, knowing that the ultimate source and referent of this love is something deep within you, something transcendent, unmoving, and permanent -- and something over which you have no control.

This gift or capacity for non-attachment in all likelihood finds its source in my mother, and her powerful, unconditional love for me. My capacity to identify with a higher, more subtle source of love was made possible by the strong maternal bond my mother made possible for me. The wholeness and self-fulfillment started there. Through that early, grounding, empowering relationship I have been enabled to fulfill my self, and through that, my yearning for God.

I wish that all people were so lucky.

The problem here is that the capacity to meet a child's spiritual needs depends on the fulfillment of a relationship -- and a developmental period -- over which children have no control. You can't simply decide, at age twenty, that you wish to cultivate self-esteem. For the most part, like your native life force, either you have it or you don't. Which all goes back to the quality of the physical and emotional environment you had growing up. I figure that ninety-eight percent of people have been raised in situations that handicap them for the rest of their lives. Which isn't to say that people can't improve and heal. They can and they do. But you just can't ever truly make up for being abused or neglected as a child.

And what of the other two-percent -- the few who have been lucky enough to have had wonderful early years? In my view, most of them make big mistakes or fritter-away their talents. They trade their charisma and self-esteem for money or fame. They do not yoke their vitality and intelligence to a spiritual path.

Our only chance at survival -- and the only chance we have to increase the number of people capable of this spiritual transformation -- is through a collective, planetary effort to boost humanity's capacity for love and idealism. The only way we will be able to do this -- the only way we will be able to elevate human potential and aspiration -- is to improve the physical and social conditions of this world. To empower children we must empower parents. To empower parents we must improve their economic, social, and physical conditions. In other words, engendering a broad spiritual transformation will require a lot of mundane, difficult, and this worldly work. There is no other way for the qualities of love, confidence, compassion, and optimism to reign as common human denominators.

Such a world -- such a capacity for transformation -- starts from birth. If we can give children the wonderful, safe, and fulfilling childhoods they deserve, the spiritual paths they embark upon some ten or twenty years later will be far more easy and rewarding to tread.

Truly, ten years of happy childhood are worth more than one hundred in meditation.

Limitation of the Body

My awakening was preceded by an extended period of my being unhappy with my level of physical attachment. Everything that I did felt highly conditional to me. I felt trapped. If I had a date or some social event to attend, I would always go on a run so that my body would maintain a certain state of vibration or health throughout the course of the engagement. Being in as heightened a state as possible was a prerequisite for my wanting or allowing myself to spend time with other people. It was as if I wanted sufficient energy or "spin" such that nothing socially would stick to me. It was as though I sought to maintain an energetic bubble around me.

I rowed collegiate crew the year before. I became exhausted by its excessive physical focus. There was a saying, and it was apt, that all the guys did was "chew, crew, and screw." The lifestyle became disfiguring to my higher aspirations, so at the season's conclusion I left. There was a growing sensation that the body in itself was insufficient as a focus for my happiness. I needed a higher focus. Increasingly, I turned to the subtle dimension -- to Spirit. I wished to invoke that, to establish a connection to -- a consciousness of -- that.

More on the Bubble

My freshman year of college I had a Korean roommate who had attended the Phillips Exeter Academy. He said I was the most self-involved person he had ever met. I recall that he smoked cigarettes and frequently went to bed at 4:00am or so after having marathon conversations with others in our specially designated dorm where quiet was enforced. I, on the other hand, would go to bed by 9:00pm or so and didn't talk much. Somewhere on this site I will try to tease this out more, but the fact of the matter is that I didn't have deep conversations with people. I might "do" things with others, but I didn't typically engage others in lengthy convserations. I found conversations distracting and alienating. My focus, I suppose, was my body. I think his strong reaction to me came one morning, perhaps it was 7:00am, when I went to his bed and tickled his toes that were sticking out from under his sheets. This, of course, upset him. But I had become annoyed with his nocturnal lifestyle and shunning of morning productivity.

Breaking from Friends

During the month or two leading up to my awakening I told my best friend in college that I no longer could tolerate our friendship. I told him that it was limiting my development. We used to leave half-hour long messages on each other's telephone answering machines and had been quite close. However, that fall he had become a fraternity member and could no longer give me the time and quality of attention that he used to. I remember crying as I told him that I just couldn't be a friend of his anymore. Part of me was insulted at having the quality of our friendship diluted by the addition of 40 more people to his intimate circle.

During the same period I wrote a few letters to additional friends, including my best friend from high school, indicating my desire to withdraw my attention from our relationship.

A Few More Quotes From Ramakrishna

"He had attained to great yogic powers, but he never cared to display these marvelous powers to anybody. He told his disciples that all these powers would come to a man as he advanced, but he warned them never to take any heed of the opinions of men. They had not to please men, but to try to attain the highest perfection, that is, unity with Brahman. The power of working miracles was rather a hindrance in the way to perfection, inasmuch as it diverted the attention of man from his highest goal." [from Swāmī Vivekānanda's introduction]

Swami Abhedananda; Fitzgerald, Joseph A.. Original Gospel of Ramakrishna: Based in M's English Text, Abridged (Library of Perennial Philosophy: Spiritual Masters: East and West) . World Wisdom. Kindle Edition.

Sadhguru: Kundalini Yoga - Awakening the Shakti Within (*) (mp4) (comments) (2022.12.4.)

Some caution regarding the path of Kundalini yoga. Listen, and if this resonates with you, consider it more and perhaps investigate some of Sadhguru's other teachings.

Going For It (2022.12.4.)

Sadhguru and many others caution aspirants about Kundalini pitfalls. I acknowledge these and elaborate upon them in these pages. Having said that, I remain convinced that if aspirants are dedicated to the service of others, and live healthful, righteous, disciplined lives, then whatever blasts and circumstances may arise in your bodymind's adaptation to a heightened subtle energy flow within you, you will survive and be the better for it. We all have to die. It is best that you address this matter while alive and young. We need more depth and wisdom in our population. Be such a person.

Sadhguru in the above video states that for most people a path of moderation, where spiritual aspiration is subdued and worldly achievement more prominent, is preferred. That is for you to decide. I have lived my life in existential disagreement with Sadhguru's recommendation. Whether my life has been a success or a failure is for you to decide. As for me, I accept God's blessings and judgments. That reflections on my own path can sharpen others' intuitions and discernments gives me satisfaction.

I view it this way. Humans, as a species, are like Amazon Fire Ants. Some of us willingly sacrifice ourselves in the furtherance of the wisdom and evolution of the group. Maybe most human beings are unwilling to take chances. Maybe only five percent place themselves at risk in order to gain new knowledge. If this is so then I consider myself, Gopi Krishna, and many others to be in this group of trail blazers, this five percent. Life does not always go well for these people. But you will discover things that open up possibilities for those that follow you. Seeking a life of normalcy and social acceptance does not always go well. It is not always "safe." So choose your path. If you ask me, I would answer, "Listen to your heart! Be brave!"

When I was a child, kids would play outside till dark. There were no cell phones. You might tell your parents, "I am going to so-and-so's house." And that was it. Three or four hours later you would be home again, with your parents having trusted that you would come back on your own. No one but you and your friends would know what you had been doing or the risks that you had taken.

But today it is different. Parents and children are full of fear. Children stay in their homes, glued to their televisions and wirelessly connected devices. Few play outside or gather at the park for recreation.

It is a sad state. Children are becoming obese. They are more likely to follow illegitimate authority without question. Their eyes are weakening. Children are becoming conformist and slackjawed. Their imaginations have lessened. There are external and internal aspects of this devolution.

To foster more bravery -- to create more trail blazers -- this needs to reverse. Perhaps five percent of young people will be abducted in the course of their childhoods, if they are given tremendous freedom. Maybe that number is higher. Maybe it is lower. But I would say that as a society, this risk must be taken, if only for the health of the remaining 95%. They will be much hardier and self-reliant if mothers and fathers are not "helicoptering" over their young bodies twenty-four hours per day. Roll the dice. Take that chance. Have faith. The strength of the species depends on it!

Notes

how my mind would shift about whenever I attempted to focus it in meditation; my mind rebelled at being controlled and directed so coldly; the mind is meant to behave in a free and spontaneous manner;

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