Energetic Malaise - Subtle Body Deflation - Toxic Cellular Tower Microwave Radiation

Energetic Malaise - Subtle Body Deflation - Toxic Cellular Tower Microwave Radiation

Electrical Sensitivity - Personal Symptoms And Reflections - December 31, 2017

2017.12.31. Sunday, 6:31am

My response to the ambient EMF at my house here in Coachella Valley is worsening. I have pain in my thymus gland and brachial plexus. I have pain in my thyroid, pituitary, and pineal glands. I am coughing all the time. But worse than all of the above, I feel depressed and listless. I awaken to pain. The pain and ennui continue unabated through the day. My cognitive output is reduced 90%. This is highly problematic when I have taxes, website writing, and paperwork for my employment to attend to. After less than five minutes of sitting upright at my desk all I want to do is lie down and turn all of my sensory organs OFF. As it is not possible to amputate every nerve ending in my body, my subtle body roasts all day long.

These symptoms are nothing new. What is new is the sense of tiredness and defeat that is growing in me. Truly I am tired of this struggle. I've been working with a shielding manufacturer since May to develop plans for a modular RF enclosure to be erected at my mother's house at a cost of $30,000 or so, but I get the sense that he is dragging his feet. I worked with this same business twenty years ago back in 1997 when I visited his facility and received drawings and a quote for an enclosure for my home on the Big Island. I shared these plans with AT&T when a cellular tower was being considered near my house. I wanted the big telecom to go halves with me on the enclosure. I included my electrical sensitivity certification from the Environmental Health Center at Dallas. Of course, AT&T never responded. I also shared my experiences with some EMF advocacy groups, which published them in various newsletters. Several years later the enclosure manufacturer said that their willingness to help people like me with ES had been "bad for business." I assume they lost some contracts over their dealings with me and people like me. The government, the military, and the telecommunications industry are pro-wireless, regardless of its impacts. It's a sad situation.

All of this is to say that I've been waiting eight months for the deployment of an enclosure that for the purposes of my taxes will be described as a necessary medical device (I have a doctor's letter stating this). Given the lackluster performance of my precious metals investments the past six or seven years, I just don't have the money for a down payment on a house with better exposures. I have enough money for an enclosure, but not for a house. I'd rather move, but I cannot afford to. Financially, it makes more sense staying put and carrying on with some debt repayments to my mother and saving money for my eventual exit. While my mother doesn't understand what I am dealing with, she's allowed me to colonize the living room with this metal box if that is what I need to do.

Again, my physiologic response to this subtle stressor is more concerning than ever before. My hair is turning white. My complexion is gray rather than ruddy. My heart pangs with swelling sensations and pain. On five of my ten fingers I have fungal issues which causes a pitting or depression in the nails near the cuticles, most likely on account of a depressed immune system. I feel exhausted all the time. I almost never feel the inspiration to work out. Because of my location, "working out" for me involves a 1-2 hour drive along a dangerous highway to find an area suitable for exercise with reduced EMF. Finding the energy to drive hundreds of miles just to take a walk is becoming more challenging. But lying about the house is not an option either, as my stomach sags and my vitality drains from me. My sex drive is nearly non-existent. It's been weeks since I last fantasized or masturbated, as doing so takes too much energy.

I just spent two days at a friend's house in Rancho Mission Viejo off the Ortega Highway where EMF exposures are better for me. There were cellular tower transmissions and about 30 Wi-Fi signals passing through my body all the time, but still it was better than where I live. I was able to take some walks in the foothills of the Santa Ana Mountains right outside his home. It's been eight years since I was last able to exercise without getting in the car for a long drive. That was when a tower cluster went up in Ojai around 2010. Upon returning home yesterday I felt irritation and pain throughout my body. But again, it was the subtle body deflation -- the energetic malaise that affects my entire being -- that was the hardest thing to deal with. The same thing happened this past week after a day of hiking in the high desert whereupon returning home I was buffeted by the toxic ambient EMF of the area. This feeling, actually, begins some miles away, as I have become sensitive to the witch's brew of tower signals in a wide radius around my house.

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