Good God! Someone Wants To Worship Me! What To Do?

Good God! Someone Wants To Worship Me! What To Do?

Summary

Describes my correspondence with a man who asked permission to meditate on a picture of me. Describes how I referred this gentleman to Ramana Maharshi and Ammachi, arguing that they are enlightened -- while I am not -- and that therefore they would make for more suitable icons for his spiritual aspirations.

Argues that kundalini manifestation is but one of several signs of enlightenment. Argues that kundalini arousal and transmission -- by themselves -- are not sufficient proof of enlightenment. Argues that other signs -- such as selfless, ethical conduct -- must be present as well.

Argues that there are levels of addiction; and that an addiction to me would be a more benign form of enslavement than one to alcohol or methamphetamines.

Website Correspondence - January 10, 2004

I received an unusual email -- the first of its kind for me -- four days ago. It was from L., a fellow from another country. He gushed about the "clarity" and "authenticity" of my "confessions about the Kundalini process." He wanted to know if I had books he could purchase, and whether I had an ashram he could attend. He wanted permission to start meditating on a picture he had printed out of me. He wanted to know whether he should refer to me as "X" [my first name] -- or whether the "Divine" had given me another name to use.

I read this email for the first time during my lunch break at school. It was quite a shock, feeling very much immersed in the karmic soup of my employment, yet having this stranger saying, "I am absolutely sure that you are the One I’ve been waiting for all my life." I didn't feel particularly divine as I read it.

Honestly, for all I know, it could have been a troll. But just in case it was from a sincere -- but confused -- person, I took him seriously.

But it was a tricky communication to deal with. How to honor this fellow, while steering him in a better direction?

I was going to wait a few days until I had formed an appropriate response. But instead, I dashed off the following email in less than ten minutes the following morning, just prior to my departure for work.

Dear L.,

This is just a quick response, to be followed by a longer one shortly.

I say follow your heart. Provided your actions cause no harm to others or to yourself, then run with what your heart desires.

However, our time on this planet is brief, and it is important that the actions we take do not waste our energies or distract us from the goal of Self-realization.

You should be aware of the following:

1. I am not Self-realized.

2. I believe that Ammachi and Ramana Maharshi would make more suitable icons for your religious aspirations.

3. Much of my written work and life's activities are plagued with egoic complications.

4. I no longer believe that Shakti manifestation -- and one's capacity to manipulate and transmit that energy -- are the clearest signs of enlightenment. A person's ethical conduct (and impact on others) makes for a far more useful measuring rod.

5. Adi Da is completely discredited as a realized master -- for he is NOT ENLIGHTENED.

Having said that, I wish to thank you for your compliments. I do try to write clearly, and I have much more to post to my site. I am always trying to improve the clarity of my writings -- though I am painfully slow in doing so.

I wish you the very best in all of your activities -- spiritual and otherwise.

Peace to you and your quest for fulfillment!

I sent the fellow a follow-up email two days later:

Hello L,

I don't think I am going to write a follow-up note to my last email.

But if you have any questions to ask or comments you'd like to share with me, please feel free to do so. Sometimes I can get pretty busy with my daily demands, so my response may not always be a quick one, but I will do my best to get back to you.

Have a great day, my friend!

Comments

If we exchange further emails there are a number of things that I would like to share with him.

One is that he should not limit himself to my own considerations of kundalini. That is, there is a whole world of kundalini-related phenomena that is authentic, yet lies outside my experience.

I am not a safe person to meditate upon, as I have yet to conquer the self.

Arisings of kundalini are not to be equated with enlightenment or superior moral development.

I don't recommend one's meditating on anyone. We are all fundamentally equal. Access to God lies within our own beings. Nevertheless, as with all things, you should follow your heart and do those things that work for you -- regardless of what the "authorities" say.

One reason that I put a lot of personal information on the web -- including photos -- was to give people, if they needed it, some sort of a floatation device to grab onto. Though I am not enlightened, and though I am very much an imperfect being, I am a safer person to become attached to than many others. There are various levels of addiction, and I would argue that an addiction to me is a more benign form of enslavement than one, for example, to methamphetamines or alcohol. I don't tolerate people becoming dependent upon me. I will always push you forward -- or at least away! -- whereas drugs (or an abusive, demonic personality) will only drag you lower and lower into its karmic hell.

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